Wednesday, August 2, 2017


Mom's still acting like a total bitch. She seems to have gotten worse ever since Dad and I came back from our trip. I decided it would be best if I just ignore her. Arguing with her is pointless... Especially considering I already know I'm right.
She wants to act stupid and be in denial, fine. I know what's really happening... And anyone who really knows her knows too.

I'm happy cause on Friday I'm going to hang out with my Love. Which means I won't have to deal with that stupid woman's crap.

Monday, July 31, 2017

To Clarify...

Dad and I went out of town to visit our family. We stayed there for a week and it was the best week of my life. :-D
Mom and I were driving home from the casino. Long story, short. She has a major gambling addiction. Dad says she's just like Grandpa, but as far as I could tell Grandpa cared about his family... yeah he made some mistakes, but he learned from them. I wish I could say the same for Mom, but unfortunately I can't. She cares more about gambling than anything else. Even the things that should be important to her like eating and sleeping. 
But I'm totally digressing... we were on the freeway talking about the trip I took with Dad. When all of a sudden she just started saying that my Aunt and Cousins only liked me cause I was visiting them and they don't really know me. Blah, Blah, Blah. Now anyone who knows me knows I'm not about to let that slide... I don't care who says it. 
So I told Mom the truth. She's the one nobody likes. She's the reason nobody comes around. Everyone knows how paranoid she is. They're tired of her accusing them of stealing. On top of that my Aunts, Uncles and Cousins aren't stupid. They know Mom's sending me to spy on them. 
Of course Mom twisted it around, acting stupid. "I never said that. Where do you get those things?"
I told her she can lie to herself, but she can't lie to me. I know how she truly is... our whole family knows how she truly is. Not only have they talked to me about it multiple times, but they also talked to Dad about it multiple times. Mom's the only one too stupid or too blind to realize it. 
And when you think about it that's pretty sad...


I hate people who lie and manipulate to get what they want. Which is exactly what that stupid Bitch I'm forced to call my Mother is known for. She doesn't deserve the title "Mother". She wasn't there for me, she never supported me, the only person she cares about is herself. I don't know why she got married and had a kid when she could never settle down.
I know Dad's upset at me cause I don't have a kid yet, but honestly I think I'm doing all my future children and maybe even my future husband a service by waiting. Of course I don't think the love of my life will marry me. Not because he doesn't want to, but obviously because he's scared.
I have no idea why he's scared of Dad. I mean yeah he's a little rough around the edges, but he's a good man. Plus my Love also had a military father so he should understand.
My Mom on the other hand... I can totally understand why he's afraid of her. Like I said she's a liar and a manipulator. She'll twist the things you say into something they're not and make you seem like the bad guy. Plus she's extremely jealous hearted.
The problem with my Love is his personality. He's so soft and tender. There's no way he'd be able to stand up to someone like my Mom... He can barely stand up to his own Mom... hey, he can barely stand up to most of our peers. When I'm with him not only do I have to stand up for myself, but I have to stand up for him too.
Of course God gave me a very strong personality... and after all the junk I've been through I completely understand. You have to have a strong personality to make it through a lot of the crap I've been through and still keep a cheerful laid back attitude.
I mean yeah, I have a short temper... and that's about it. Yes, I get upset really fast. But I also calm down really fast and my ability to forgive is amazing. I have no idea where I got some of these personality traits cause it wasn't from my parents I can tell you that much.
Thinking about this makes me happy cause I know that must really piss Mom off.
She wants to affect me long term, but because of my personality she can't. So she throws jabs at me. She's really going to be pissed off when I start ignoring her completely :-)

Saturday, July 29, 2017


I went out of town with my Dad to visit some of my family and even though I didn't have access to a lot of things I usually do it was a lot of fun. It was also proof that Dad and I get along with each other way better when Mom isn't involved.
She's so paranoid... Amongst other things. I could probably write an entire blog about nothing but my Mom's flaws if I wanted to. But I feel like it'd be a waste of my time. Especially considering it won't change anything.

Sunday, July 2, 2017

It continues...

I'm trying not to complain cause I know it won't change anything but it's hard, plus writing about the things in my life no matter how messed up they are actually make me feel better. It's my therapy(if you will). One of the biggest things that bother me about the members of my family and some of my friends is I feel like they're not supportive. Of course when you tell them these things and try to talk it out they want to deny what they're doing... which I actually find pretty hilarious.
That's why Mom and I got into a fight earlier... She straight up tells me not to talk to her friends (Which I'm pretty sure is why she almost crashed the car) and then she tries to deny it and put it all on me. "You're the one who says don't talk to my friends. Talking about how they're you're friends."
Uh... Newsflash Woman. They are my friends and I'm an adult. I don't need Mommy's permission to do whatever it is I want to do. Even if I did need Mommy's permission she's a horrible Mother. Always was, probably always will be. So why is she suddenly all up in my business like she ever cared to begin with. Not to mention she's such a flipping hypocrite. Talking about how I'm going around talking about our personal life when anyone who knows the Woman knows she's the biggest loud mouth this side of the galaxy. No one will ever be as nosey as she is.
Unlike my friends, people who read any of my blogs and her friends I know the Woman. I've known her my whole entire life. She can try to hide who she really is from the rest of the world, but she can't hide from me. The same goes for Dad... Unlike them I actually pay attention to the people around me. Unlike them I actually care.

Hey... I guess.

The only thing worse than a lying, sneaky,  conniving person is someone who lies about it. My parents are known for saying stuff and then denying that they said it. They wonder why I don't respect them, I personally don't think they deserve my respect. I'll be so happy when I finally move out on my own cause I'm tired of their crap and them thinking they own me. They don't own diddly squat and anyone who knows me knows I don't care who they are I'm going to do whatever I want to. 
Always have, always will. 


Mom, Grandma and I came back from taking a road trip to Las Vegas and honestly I couldn't be happier.
Don't get me wrong I had fun and it was nice hanging out with them. But it was getting to the point where I couldn't take it anymore and I imagine if we had stayed together any longer I would've done something I regretted (Lord knows I said a bunch of things I regret).