Hey

I keep writing some incredibly intense stuff and it keeps getting erased.
Part of me is annoyed and part of me is wondering if that's some kind of sign.
I've been feeling... I don't know what the word is. Nostalgic? Melancholy? Maybe,  both.
I've been feeling like this for a long time. It's probably cause I'm getting older and I'm nowhere near where I thought I'd be...
I wonder how many people feel like that... Like there life isn't going the way they thought it was.
It's actually kind of funny.
I talk to my friends and family about everything, but I never talk to them about the serious stuff,  the stuff that probably matters in the long run.
I don't know why I don't I just don't.